Well on Friday before the big party night I went out to a club. I went with a couple of good friends and saw a group that played covers from the 60’s to 80’s so it wasn’t that bad. We had a few drinks, some laughs and made it a early night. I have to say it wasn’t that bad. I didn’t feel overly anxious, the music was ok, I didn’t cry, nor did I feel like I should be doing something. I just enjoyed the company. Now the trouble is we are going back. That’s not really trouble but it does put pressure on me to be out in the world. It’s just so different now. I feel odd when I’m doing things just to do things. It’s almost like I should be doing more or working on all the things that are here of Mikey’s. I should not be having fun when there is so much to do and time is always the enemy. There is either to much of it or not enough of it. Funny how such a small word can have such a great impact of life. Even the time it takes to say this we have all changed, moved on in some way, while others have not accepted the change or move.
May the new year bring us all closer and have a kind word for all. It is up to us we are the guiding force that will bring the world closer in ways it may not even know.
Love Kathy
Thank you Kathy for those wise words. What you’ve overcome is beyond my imagination. I’ve been following your blog for quite some time now and I’d really like to thank you personally for keeping Mikey’s legacy alive through this website. I am sure I can speak on behalf of many of Mikey’s fans when saying that you’ve taught us many lessons through the shared stories and memories. For me you’ve opened another dimention into his music that I can’t thank you enough for… You gave me answers on speculations I had for a very long time and thus unlocked a personal connection to his music in the way that I would previously overlook specific subjects and themes that are now evolving within every song.
Just felt like letting you know that I’ll never grow tired of reading about your progress so keep typing! May the new year give you all the answers you seek and live up to your expectation 🙂
When you have time could you respond on whether we die-hard Eyedea fans should keep our hopes high for new material being released in 2012? No pressure… 🙂
Best wishes
mikey was and still is my biggest aspiration. his words and music have helped me through the unimaginable. i’ve never even met him before and he has changed my life more than anything or anyone else in the world. i heard that poem he wrote when he was around 13 or 14(ode to hip hop) and his talent even at that young of an age and his understanding of life and existence was decades beyond every kid his age. i can honestly say micheal larson is my idol. i’m also a 17 year old recovering drug addict which is why i love his music so much. it’s just nice to know someone did feel like me in every way shape and form. thank you so much kathy for the updates and i’ll be sure to be checking all of them.
Kathy-
If I could ever volunteer myself (my fiance as well) to help in anything, we would find it a great honor. Being a Mom myself to a little guy who seriously is the center of my world I cannot imagine how you feel ;(
most sincere best wishes too you and your loved ones.
Kate , Patrick and Griff
Hey Kathy
Thankyou for everything. Please keep this up. Hope you are doing well.
Kathy,
Thank you a million times for having brought Mikey into this world. As an artist he has truly had more of a positive influence on my life than anyone or anything I can think of… and I mean that from the bottom of my soul. Mikey has opened the eyes of countless people and his words and ideas continue to pop mine open on a daily basis. I will turn human beings on to his music and philosophies until the day I die. His music was very intellectually and philosophically complex for many people, but so blissfully simple at the same time. I mean “simple” in the best way possible. In my opinion he was vocalizing what most of us constantly go through in our brains on a subconscious level, and many of us on a conscious level, with the majority of us not possessing the self-awareness, confidence, integrity, and/or humility to let that shit out to accept it, face it, process it, and to finally to work through it-ultimately becoming better people in the end for going through that process which I feel was the underlying message of many of his songs. (For me this concept is the most “simple” way for a person to live an honest, compassionate, guilt-free, selfless life, and I desperately wish this way of thought processing would be automatic in all of us.) Because of this, I have an infinite amount of respect for his legacy. Through his music he has, and will continue to open so many essential doors for individuals to question and better their existence during their lifetimes, which may not have ever opened for them without him. Mikey was a truly enlightened person and through his blatant self-honesty he is responsible for enlightening me to an extent, which I will be forever grateful for. I feel blessed to have grown up listening to him, reciting his lyrics, and to have grown up during a time in “this life” when his soul was creating art. I very much hope that you continue to let all of us in on what is going on in your world, and what had happened in his… because people care about both-A Lot. In a way, hearing what is happening in your life brings Mikey back to life for me and reading your entries on this site makes my day. Fans near and far will never, ever forget him, or you. I would like to end this long-winded reply with a quote by Jack Kerouac… “I hope it is true that a man can die and yet not only live in others but give them life, and not only life, but that great consciousness of life.” Once again Kathy, thank you for bringing such a beautiful soul into this world.
Everyone is always with you.
Kathy,
I’m just a long time fan who somehow never found my way to this website but I feel like I have so much to say after reading all that I have on here. I remember first hearing the Eyedea and Abilities self titled and feeling like being a kid going to Disneyland for my first time. As an adult I hadn’t really had many experiences like these and haven’t had many since but I remember hearing those lyrics for the first time and printing them all up to read and really try to understand them. I took and played Eyedea everywhere I went no matter what group of friends I was around. Your son really filled a void at that point in life as my one true love (hip hop) was at a slow point and really lacked any type of productivity or intelligence. Eyedea fixed that all in one cd. Since his passing I continue to listen to his music daily and I still find myself awe stricken here and there. You brought something special into this world, who still inspires people today and you should always feel like a saint for that. I also wanted to let you know that when reading these entries this morning I felt the same exact feeling when hearing that cd. To see that you continued to write to fans and friends after his passing is a whole other type of inspiration. I can honestly say that when I leave this website I will be a slightly different person. This has truly been an experience that cured me of a lot of negative thoughts and replaced them with a blend of happiness and sadness that is truly something special. I hope you can one day be reach the level of happiness you once felt again. Both you and your son have inspired me in a way I really can’t put into words.
Thank you so much for this.
I love you Mikey. I can’t wait to see you again.
Your Infinite Love, Sophy