Feeling this week

I have had a lets say interesting week. I have been missing Mikey as always but the things I’m missing are a wide range. I miss his hugs, he had a way of just surrounding me with his arms, I miss how he with all most everybody instinctively knew what you needed, how he laughed from deep within his diaphragm, the fact that even if we didn’t see or talk to each other daily I knew he had been at the house, I could come in and know he had been there, now days I’m not sure who is here or been here. I now have to split up what I talk over with to professionals where as when Mikey was here I could talk with him and a few friends. Even through Mikey would talk to everyone and do it for hours, I do less of that. I have a few things that need to get sorted out and have to make appointments to talk out things. I know many of you reading this will say “you can talk to me” I wish I could but the truth is these are things hard to explain and the way people in my family and what I call that inner circle react to things not as hard to explain and how well the cyber world has defended Mikey and me I don’t want people to over react. Kinda turned into a Vent well at least some of this stuff gets said out loud. So more venting I feel, I can’t remember what Mikey and I did the last Mother’s day we were together. I remember many of them, I remember what my family did the first one after he passed, I remember many of the gifts he gave, but I just can’t remember the very last one before. It bugs me the things I can’t remember like where I put his hat, or his phone, or this picture of him skate boarding. Funny how our minds decide what and when things come and go. I don’t know how some of you keep so much straight. Brady/Brody your amazing. I thank you All for reading, staying with me in the world of space, continuing the support of Mikey’s endeavors, and the love that comes from all over. Love Kathy